LOVEISINTHEAIR.

2011-08-20T15:37:00.002+08:00

I do miss you, my dearest Alvin Quek.

I miss the little things you do but I am angry the way you handle things now. I know I cannot blame you for doing such things, I really hope that we can sit down and clear all the misunderstandings we have. Maybe it is because I don't know how to express myself using my words. Maybe it is because I don't know how to express myself using words but I am sure my actions have shown that I am willing to change for you. I am really ready to give you all I can because I truly believe that we can give each other a chance to try out and in fact do what had not been done better.

2011-08-14T14:40:00.001+08:00

I miss the everything you do for me.

I miss you, I really do.

2011-08-12T02:25:00.001+08:00

It didnt strike me so hard that I have been such a perfectionist in life. I have to thank my best friend, Huei Ping for knocking some sense into me just a few hours ago.

I, myself dont even know I am as such until this important friend of 12 years reminded me of how I expect things to be perfect and how I force my ideas of life across to people close to me. If you ask me who shaped me into who I am now, I am really unsure. Was it because of my unhappy childhood? Was it because of how I was being brought up and how people around me treated me? I don't know. Ping told me that it might be because of my past. My past caused me to have the desire to move forward and ahead to outshine the others- to show the others that I am not weak in fact, I am strong enough to brave through many difficulties.

I am proud to show all my progression over the years. I was the last in class in Primary 6. I made it to a decent Secondary School. I progressed from there to do a Diploma in Science and found that it is still not enough. I went ahead to apply for a teaching position with MOE. Life wasn't easy from the start. I fought hard to where I am now, as a teacher.

Along the way, I paid no notice about the things that were happening around me. I asked my best friend to continue to study without realising what she wants and need. She was truthful enough to tell me that she thought that I was a little irritating when I asked her to continue to study and not to continue with life only with a Diploma. I didnt know that this was in her thoughts until today, 12 August 2011. Ping, I am glad that my words knocked some sense into you and I am really happy for you as you are now on the way to completing your degree.

I pinned hopes on my bf. I want him to be a successful man in life. This indirectly cause stress and strains in his life. To me, I thought he was mine and he only belonged to me. I wasn't happy when he goes out with his friends, I wasn't happy when he told me that he was tired. I complained and complained. I complained that he is not good enough for me because he doesn't spend much time with me. I even doubt his sincerity when he said that he was ready to get married. I didn't know what he wanted. I neglected his needs- his needs for friends and games (his all time favourite). Having thinking through about what had happened, I really think that this has to change. The love he had for me was too much, too much. I realised that he tried to enter airforce because I told him that it would give him a bright future. I asked him to go for his degree, instead he went for certification because he knew that he might not be able to make it through the degree and didnt want to waste the money. Still, he assured me by showing me the never-say-die mentality. That's my man for you. To him, he just want to be happy. He is contented with what he has. Because of me, he strive to work hard for a better future. He did these all because of me. He loves me very much.

I can never forget the sweet little things he does. He will always make sure that breakfast is ready when I stayover at his place. when I have sore-throat, he will make sure that I have my medication and will make my favourite pipagao drink even when he is super tired. When we go overseas, he will make sure that he fills the bath-tub with water because he knows that I like to soak myself in the tub. He will also take care of the money we have. He doesnt mind if he doesnt get anything. He will make sure that I am happy during the trip. He will try his best to make sure that I get everything I wish for. I told him that I want a diamond ring. He bought me a diamond ring. I told him that I want to settle down, he got himself ready to settle down. I told him that I want flowers on my graduation, he went to Jurong Point and bought me flowers. I told him that I want the graduation bear. He bought me the graduation bear.

This is how much my bf loves and care for me. What did I give him in return? Nothing. Nothing compares to the love he gave and showered me.

Life cannot be a bed of roses. We, as humans make mistakes. I expected people in my life to live the way I want them to live. I didnt consider how they felt because I always think that what I think is always the best for them. I have unconciously made mistakes which are deadly and unforgiveable.

I didnt know that I have been such a lousy gf all these while until my best friend tells me so. I do not know how much hurt and pain I have inflicked in my friends throughout the years. I feel so guilty because I know that my friends and bf have always been there when I need a shoulder to cry on or when I meet with difficulties.

I might not be perfect now. I will try my best to let go of my views and perspectives so that I will not be so hard on myself and the people around me.

Thank You, my dear friends (Shi Qin, Huei Ping, Huiyin, Cheewan, Joyce, Sandy, Deb, Charm, May, Joanne, LC) for being there for me all these while. Sorry for being such a lousy friend. I will learn to become a better friend.

Thank You, Baby for loving me for who I am. I have realised my mistakes and will promise to change for the better. I will respect you and give you time to cool down. Please don't give up on me for I really love you.

All from the bottom of my heart,
YY

joy

2011-07-17T14:39:00.002+08:00

Other than being with Mr. BF, I dont find joy in life anymore. My life is about him and only him. He is my friend, my lover and husband. He is like my pillar and my strength to move on in life. It has been 5 going on to 6 years and this is the worse quarrel ever. I don't want anymore quarrels. I want him to hold me to truely say that he loves me.

I find it so devastating when he told me that he is tired but is willing to try. He used to love me whole-heartedly.

I really don't want the relationship to end. He is my everything.

2011-07-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hello!

It has been a LONG LONG time since I have blogged. Let me update a bit about what had happened over the 2-3 months.

I ended my practicum on 6 May 2011.
It was a BIG torture for me as there wasn't hand-holding for English and I was given a low-ability class. The most niao thing that happened was my EL CT actually apologised to me on the last day of my practicum for not being able to be able to help me. seriously! what have I done to deserve such treatment. It is not even a bloody CREDIT! -.-

I reported to my new school on 23 May 2011.
MOE posted me to Mee Toh School- a Buddhist school. I am quite happy with the posting because it is going to be near to my new place at Punggol Crest. :) The school will turn single-session in 2013. I hope to move in by then too! (so that I dont have to travel to Punggol early in the morning.)I am given a Primary 1 class to teach. The children are so adorable. I wanna bring them home to show my parents how cute are they. Of course, they do get on my nerves in class most of the time. HAHAHA

NIE released results on the first or second day of meeting. (1st week of June holidays)
I wasn't offered the crossover programme because of my poly grades. I thought I scored quite well for this piece of Diploma. I really deserve to die for choosing something I wouldnt do well in after my 'O' Levels. I appealed many times but to no avail. Wells, after this incident, I really learn that the world is damn cruel. They will look at your past and decide your future.

In NIE, we always learn to not stereotype or look down on a child because of what they had done. These are all nonsenses! NIE looks at my past and decides my future. Because of my poly grades, they rejected my appeal to crossover! PUI!

NVM. I am over it already. All I want to do now is to concentrate on my job and then further study 2 years later hopefully with NIE to show them that I CAN DO IT!

During the June holidays, My family and I went to Taiwan for 9 days. I had a very fun time there.

The new school term has started. I hope the start everything afresh. TYY will jiayou! :)

2011-04-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

Practicum is draining.

I started the practicum hoping to get a credit.. now, I just wanna pass.

sighh

PRIVE@Punggol Field

2011-01-17T17:16:00.003+08:00

The trip down to PRIVE made me &*^&*%&^% (no words can describe how I felt)

The unit is super pretty and its quite affordable considering the fact that it is a HDB launched condo.(it will be converted to a private property after 10 years) The only thing that was holding me back was the down payment part. In order to get the flat, we need to pay a cash deposit of 5%, which amounts to about 35k. (for a typical 4-room unit) Tell me where to find such money especially when the both of us just started out working and are NOT professionals. :(

I really like the unit, but it is NOT realistic! ><

BF and I decided to stick with our lil' nest at Punggol Crest, which would be ready 4th quarter 2013. (Hoping for it to be early though!)

Hopefully we can earn enough money to do up a nice renovation. (like how the showflat looks like.)

BAH! 2 years to 2013.. Nothing is planned for, nothing is done. ABIT SCARY! BOOO!

Bye Bye 2010, Hello 2011

2011-01-07T00:32:00.011+08:00

Happy New Year to all! :)

For several reasons, 2010 had been a good year. I am looking forward to a better year.
Let us go through what had happened in 2010.

As some of our closer friends know, we had been paying $10 on a monthly basis to ballot for a flat in Punggol. On 13 July 2010, Alvin Quek and I headed to HDB to book our very own flat. Though it is not the unit that I really like, it is an unit which somehow matches what I want. :)

Next I would like to bring you guys through some pictures which were taken in 2010.

Chinese New Year Day 1: In 2010, Chinese New Year Day 1 fell on 14 February. Alvin came over early in the morning to fetch me over to his place. This is the first time I visit his family on the first day of CNY. I headed to his grandfather's place also! :)

July 2010: I was posted to Jun Yuan Primary School for my 5 weeks practicum. I got Mr Yam as my NIE supervisor. I really don't know if I want to laugh or cry. The experience there was good, very different from Griffiths Primary. I had a superb CT, Mrs Marisa De Almeida. She had taught me skills that I do not know. I count myself lucky to have her as my CT. :)

In June 2010, Alvin and I headed to Genting with parents and extended family. It was an eventful trip because the bus which was supposed to bring us up broke down along the expressway. We were stucked at a remote petrol kiosk for almost 3 hours. Trips with my sweet heart are always nice. :)

In September 2010, I went for a makeover at MakeupInc. I have to thank Alvin's dad for passing me the vouchers to the makeover. I am quite happy with the results. My wish fulfilled. :)

In August 2010, I headed to Genting (again) with Maybeline, Eugene and Sherlyn. It was a fun and adventurous trip. We headed to KL for a one-day trip. I had fun haggling and shopping with them. It was definitely a bonding session. This trip brought me closer to the girls. :)

In October 2010, I celebrated my 24th birthday. My bf decided to pop the question on this special day. Though the ring was bought earlier (in March), he didn't propose. I think I pressured him to propose to me on my birthday so that it can be a memorable one. Hahah! He proposed via SMS in the afternoon just before my DCM test, and I only said "Yes" when I met him at night. I insisted that he must have flowers and must kneel down to ask me to marry him. Though I was a little disappointed when I saw the flowers, Alvin provided me with a sweet explanation. "The flowers represent the love that I have for you, if you become naughty, I will pluck out and throw away."
I teared when I heard him say that. andddd, of course, I said "YES".
That makes me a happily engaged lady.

In December 2010, I completed my first full marathon. Although the timing doesn't look good, I am glad that I persevered. :)

In December 2010, I headed to Taiwan; Kaohsiung with the same group of people, Alvin, Liangchang and Joanne. We spent a total of 9 days in Taiwan. We laughed together, ate together, walked together. I want more of such trips in the many years to come. :)

The year 2010 had been a year full of happy events. I hope 2011 would also be the same, if not even better. I have a lot of things to look forward to in 2011.

Liang Chang and Joanne's Wedding which would be held on 5 November 2011
Eugene and Maybeline's Wedding which would be held in December
Crossover (I really hope that NIE would give me a chance to do so)
Hopefully, plans for my wedding? (HAHAHA! Just my wishful thoughts, I doubt it would happen)
An overseas trip to some place which I have not been to. (JAPAN!) :)
Progress of Punggol Crest! (Which would be ready in 2-years' time!

I love my life! How about you?

Universal Studios; Singapore!

2010-12-16T18:41:00.004+08:00

Headed to Universal Studios with Maybeline, Sherline and their partners. Had a whole load of fun there.

The down sides were not having monster with me, the waiting time of the rides and also the "lack" of mascots. (I only saw the woodpeckers, betty boop, the-white-fly fly skirt lady, this weird monster and betty boop).

Us with the magic potion bottle!

More pictures can be found at my facebook profile, under Universal Studios Singapore.

anddd..

Yay! 5 days to Kaohsiung!

COE!

2010-12-13T01:37:00.002+08:00

Everyone is talking about the increase in COE recently.

I told Monster Quek about it and what he told me was, he was interested because he doesnt have any intention to buy a car now! (With wedding and our new place coming in)

I wonder if I could get a car in future especially with the forever-rising COE. Let's hope that COE will drop soon so that baby and I can consider buying 1 when we are more stable.

JIAYOU TYY and Monster Quek!

Agreement of Lease!

2010-12-08T01:41:00.002+08:00

Baby and I headed to HDB to sign the Agreement of Lease for our flat today.

We reached HDB at about 12-ish and proceeded straight to the self-help machine to register ourselves. Our officer called us within 5minutes and we proceeded to sign the required papers.

and TAAA-DAAaa! I am a proud owner of a HDB unit! :))

My thoughts..

I am very happy that my monster is finally thinking about our future. we talked a lil about our future after we signed the papers. We went up to the habitual (something) to look at the actual layout of our flat. We discussed (and bickered) about how we want our things to be displayed. We had arguments, but they were not harmful. (ie. i want a bath tub, he doesn't want, I want the study room to be separated into 2- my study area and his games spot.. he says he wants to play his game in the living room)

All I can say is, the progress is good. I am beginning to see more responsible man in him. I am confident that he would be a good husband and a good daddy to my lil theodore and lil theodora in future. :)) We are going to have a happy family!

My friend.

2010-12-03T00:39:00.001+08:00

挂在嘴边的友情已经再也不是以前的友情。

因为选择伤害，就算已经变成疤痕，一样还是会痛。

天气天天都在变，股市天天也在变，不知不绝所谓的友情也变了。

唯一不变的始终只有亲情。

不是吗？

今天见识了所谓的爱情的滋润。

但是，不是发生在我身上。

如果能让我选择，我宁愿当做我没看到

Darling Joyce saw this somewhere and she cried like mad.
She is sucha silly girl. SO FUNNY!

haha.

Tell me how can I not love her? :D

I am not always blissful..

2010-11-17T00:29:00.003+08:00

There are times when I feel as though M. Quek is a piece of shit. It makes me want say "Let's break up".

Just like today, he went out with his colleagues to drink and eat. I am very pissed off to hear that because he told me that he needs to work and will be tired after his class. Why is he going out after lessons? Aren't he tired?

He said that I am not ready for marriage. I think it is more of him not being ready to settle down because he still wants to play with his friends. Tell me about it. Before his friend (lets name this person A.) got together with the current gf, he had always been asked out to go out with his friends. But now that the friend is with the current gf, the friend didnt really ask him out anymore because he wants to accompany his gf.

Why is it that he always places his brothers before me? Why is it that I always have to be the one giving way? Why is it that he always tell me that he is tired and want to rest, the next moment, I hear him telling me that he is meeting his friend for a drink. WHY?

Why can't he the perfect man whom I first meet 4 years back? Why can't he stay the way he was? Why must he be so lazy? Why can't him be a little more energetic when he sees me? Is he tired of me or what? Why is he not interested in looking forward to our new house? Why is he not looking forward to our wedding planning? WHYY?

I am really disappointed with him sometimes (most of the time). I can easily venture out and see if there are better people for me. Why him? I really dont understand. I dont think I have failed as a girlfriend because I did all that I could do. (be it his family or him) I really dont know what are the things that I have done wrong. I just dont want him to drink too much to hurt his liver. Thats it! What is so difficult about it?

Talking about brothers.. How long can these brothers stay with you? Is this investment profitable? I am not demanding much. I just ask for him to not drink and play.

sigh. i dont know. maybe i should really venture out. any eligible bachelors around? :(

Year End Trip

2010-11-01T00:20:00.001+08:00

My parents are leaving me in Singapore for 5 days! :(

School!

2010-10-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

Am into week 7 of the new school term. 5 more weeks before I gain my freedom again. (somehow, i dont wish this day to come)

Monday was an interesting day because my DED tutor, R admitted openly that he is a gay and he said that he is proud of it! According to some of my friends, he share his experience on bed with the group presenting on STAKEHOLDERs. He directed the group to do the topic on homosexuality and he gave them HIGH marks. (46 out of 50) I feel that this is not very fair because it is not related to the given totally. anyways, no use complaining because people might comment that I am jealous of their grade.

I seriously feel that the organisation is a screwed place with people cheating and all.

At the start of the semester, I found out that somebody in my batch has been cheating since sem 1. I was very upset when I knew about this incident. I wanted very much to report the matter to the department concerned. I didn't do it because I realised that I cannot remain anonymous the moment I report the case! I consulted one of my lecturers and she encouraged me to bring the matter up. I decided not to do that after much consideration because this will mean that I have to be involved in the investigation. (unwanted trouble). I really despise the person and I hope that her evil acts will be made known to MOE and she will receive punishment! (SUPER ANGRY!)

Whats nice about NIE is that I got Jason Loh as my tutor for 2 modules. I have always enjoyed his lessons. His lessons are engaging and he is really good because he has many ways of tackling a problem. (HE HAS MANY PEDAGOGICAL STRATEGIES!) I look forward to go to his class every week. I look forward to learning new things from him. I really wish to have him as my NIE supervisor so that he can impart all his pedagogical knowledge to me! (ahahahah!)

SIGH!! Schooll..

On a happier note:

Alvin liked the wallet I bought him and he didnt scold me for buying an expensive (according to him) wallet.
Book tickets to go to TAIWAN, KAOHSIUNG on Tuesday.. Will be leaving on 21 December and I will be spending Christmas 2010 in KAOHSIUNG!!

The Big P! :)

2010-10-13T22:24:00.005+08:00

The proposal..

I was telling Alvin Quek that I want a memorable proposal, but I didnt expect him to propose on my 24th birthday. I was caught surprised. :)

He smsed me at 12 noon on my birthday to wish me happy birthday. He then said that he wants to give me a surprise by asking me to marry him! I was shocked when I saw the sms and I didnt know how to react because it was too sudden! My immediate reaction was to keep laughing. HAHA. Maybeline and gang was beside me and I kept asking them how I should react.

This was the screenshot of the sms he sent me. I was tearing and shocked when I saw the sms! haha. then he used his friend's phone to send me the sms below. When I saw that sms, I teared even harder because I knew that he wasn't joking. I told him that I would only reply him at night.

Guess what was my reply to him at night! haha.

I insisted that I wanted flowers.. Alvin, being the irritating one told me that he didn't buy flowers because he thinks that it is a waste of money. I was so pissed off that I said, then like that I am not going to marry you, and he said ORH! omgg!

Peefour came and insisted that he kneel and propose. HE DIDN'T! (I should spare you guys w the details, it was hilarious!)

It was until they left when he brought out a bouquet of (fake) flowers. I was quite sian-ed when he brought that bouquet out because I was expecting REAL flowers! Then, he said..

"The flowers in the bouquet represents the love that I have for you. It will never die BUT... I will pluck the flowers out if you make me angry.."

I thought that explanation was sweet. I insisted that he must go on his knees..

HE WENT ON HIS KNEES and said,

"Baby, will you marry me?"

(aww, so sweet!) I teared and said YES! :)

That makes me a happily engaged lady! :)

Farewell Mrs. Lee...

2010-10-06T21:32:00.003+08:00

”When I kissed her on her cheek, she told me not to come too close to her in case I caught her pneumonia… When given some peaches in hospital, she asked the maid to take one home for my lunch. I was at the centre of her life.”

An excerpt from MM Lee's eulogy on his wife's private funeral service at Mandai Crematorium..

Such loving couple. It was heartwrenching to see MM Lee kiss his wife even when she is lying in the coffin.

I send my deepest condolences to MM Lee and his family.

Medicine filled weeks

2010-09-30T17:14:00.002+08:00

I was on medication for the past week and the whole of this week.

First it was the stupid eye infection which affects both of my eyes (a week after another), now it's food poisoning. Tell me how good can life be. :(

2010-09-29T22:54:00.001+08:00

my mother has endless things to complain every night... :(

Happy Birthday

2010-09-28T16:07:00.003+08:00

I have been receiving birthday mailers recently. When I look at the calendar, my bday is coming in 2 weeks time. Excited? uhhh.. maybe not.

let me see

I have

1 assignment due and a test on that day! (maybe i will be able to score because its my day!)

I am hoping for surprises tho. well, i wonder if anyone has planned anything.

bahhh! back to the piling assignments, really disgusting!

I know I am going to stick with you for the rest of my life

2010-09-21T01:13:00.001+08:00

24th Birthday!

2010-09-20T02:00:00.002+08:00

I was asking Alvin if he would propose on my 24th birthday and his comment was...

"你等阿!"

wahlao! the diamond ring is with me for about 6 months already lahhh! GRRRrrr!

the very long holiday is coming to an end.

2010-09-02T15:54:00.002+08:00

the long holidays is coming to an end.

I am looking forward to the new school term to start. stressed, but fun. (i hope)

I am very happy to have j loh as my lecturer for 2 modules this sem. (dce and due). I am looking forward for school to start this sem. ( but I dread the new ss class) why can't they put us together? *roarrr*

total irritation. :(

Hong Kong series are

2010-08-23T10:55:00.000+08:00

SO addictivee!

I cannot breathe...

2010-08-23T02:54:00.002+08:00

Its 2.54am and I cant sleep.

I have been thinking of life after practicum. I haven been giving myself time to relax and do nothing. I have been spending a lot. As such, I have to ensure that I make enough money to keep to my expenses. Maybe I should slow down to look at things which come along.

I am tired, mentally tired. I am tired from going after material such as branded bags and all. I am tired of making sure that people around me are happy. I feel that I get too carried away with things that are occurring that I forget that I am a human. I feel like a robot.

I am tired of giving tuition thrice weekly, I am tired of looking at the calendar, trying to fix a date for tuition. I am tired of saying plea-ing my dearest myat thu to study. I am tired of spotting careless mistakes. I am tired of everything that I am doing.

Even when I feel like pigging out, I must think twice fearing that I will become fat like how I used to be. I worry when Alvin doesnt reply to my sms-es. I worry when he is out with his friends. I worry about everything.

I am duper tired mentally.

It has come to a point where I feel that my life is pathetic. I am always thinking of others.

When the 12th comes every month, the money that is credited to my account comes and it goes. I find myself struggling at the end of the month because I can't bear to see my bank balance go below 500 bucks.

Life as an adult is tired. I am constantly worried for my future. Will I be able to earn enough to have my own house? Can I lead a carefree life? (ie. have house and car without worries?)

I do envy people who have the support of their family. It is not as if I do not have the support of my family. I do! It is just that my family is there to support me emotionally (sometimes) but not financially and physically.

SIGH. I guess I shouldnt demand so much from the family. It is all about how I lead my life afterall.

2010-08-19T19:45:00.001+08:00

I need to get the "I want to buy car" thought out of my mind! :(

2010-08-18T21:52:00.001+08:00

Holidayyy..

:))

I am very happy

2010-08-12T01:05:00.001+08:00

I am very happy that my bf knows how to think of our future noww~

这一次真的要穿婚纱了！

2010-07-14T16:00:00.002+08:00

Punggol Crestian!

2010-07-13T22:14:00.003+08:00

I am so excited till I dont know how to do work!

haha!

I finally got an unit at Punggol after 5 attempts. I am very happy with the unit that I have chosen. It is on level 10! haha! The unit costs 293k. omgg. I think it would take alvin and myself some time to pay everything. The flat will be ready in 2013. So.. to my dear friends, please start to save up for my wedding. (you know who you are!)

2010-07-12T10:07:00.003+08:00

Everybody is doing LP now but I have nothing to work on. omgg. I am so deaddd.

要穿婚纱了！

2010-07-11T23:16:00.001+08:00

This is what I am going to tell myself if I feel like eating.

I want to be the world prettiest bride! :)

Good Morning Miss Tay...

2010-07-09T08:54:00.002+08:00

The students in my class greeted me with this thumb early in the morning. They are very adorable. :)

It's Friday!! :) I haven't been sleeping much.

bahhh!

On a lighter note, I am meeting the girls + terence for coffee session and toy story 3. :)

Practicum Day 2

2010-07-07T09:55:00.002+08:00

Hello Mr Panda eyes!

I was so tired that I decided to sleep and slack my day through. Today marks day 2 of practicum and I am dozing off in class while observing because I was simply too tired from all the late nights.

sigh. What to do?

I am a teacher, I promise to be good by sleeping early from today onwards.

tmr is the day..

2010-07-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

practicum starts tmr.

wish me luck!

Timbre before school starts

2010-07-02T16:24:00.004+08:00

3 days to practicum!

went timbre@substation with ss cliques and xiaohao to see my eyecandy before practicum starts.

they sang my favourite song by Beyond. :) I had fun laughing and talking to these people! :)

I want more Timbre sessions!

Punggol Waterfront flats

2010-06-30T23:42:00.001+08:00

omgg! the newly launched flats at Punggol Waterfront are so tempting. but its super expensive.

Should I apply for it?

*pouts*

5 days to practicum

2010-06-29T15:00:00.001+08:00

6 daysss

2010-06-28T12:05:00.002+08:00

6 more days to teaching assistantship.

mixed feelings. part of me is worried and part of me is looking forward to it.

i am going for pre-ta briefing tmr at 8am. I wonder how will the briefing me like. I am afraid that i would meet people like rockey! damn worried. sighhh. and to add on, i havent bought the books that are recommended by my friend! omggg. howww. i hate going back to school! if i could drive there instead of taking public transport...

sighhhh!

our flat

2010-06-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

It has been 2 days since the flat selection for Punggol Crest. The take up rate is going at a very fast rate. I am starting to wonder if we can get a place for ourselves soon~

People I loathe!

2010-06-22T22:11:00.003+08:00

i loathe people who doesnt take work seriously (ie. resign because he/she doesnt feel happy working) and want to borrow money from people to settle their personal issues. they bug you like nobody's business. irritating!

Happy 51st Anniversary!

2010-06-22T11:03:00.002+08:00

我的过去。。。

2010-06-21T17:51:00.002+08:00

I was looking for a book in my cupboard and I found my report book from LPS.

This book brought back many memories. I went ahead to read comments that were given by my teachers and I felt duper lousy after reading their comments. I felt like I am the worst person on earth that exist.

As I recalled what I have gone through, I asked often ask myself. What did I do to deserve such treatments? I didnt remember doing anything evil. Was it because of my behaviour or was it because I was disgustingly fat?

I really dont know. After thinking through what I have now. I definitely wouldnt want to go back to how I used to be. I hate myself for behaving in such a way. I hate myself for being so narrow-minded. I hate the teachers who used to look down on me. If not for them, I wouldnt be where I am now. I may have succeeded. I hate my primary school to be exact.

being fat is not a crime. I am going to prove all of your wrong wrong wrongg!

Genting!

2010-06-17T00:20:00.002+08:00

I am going on a trip to Genting with Alvin and his extended family over the weekend. I will be back on Sunday.

It has been 7 years since I've been there. Wonder how much has it changed. Shall blog about the trip when I am back.

Till then, take care.

the gorgeous one. :)

2010-06-14T12:31:00.003+08:00

“不是每一个男人都是用他的下半身想的”

quoted from watching the 9pm show.

I do not agree to this. try tempting a man with a sexy girl, they will forget about love. haha.

2010-06-12T00:03:00.001+08:00

Tamago

I have always wanted to learn how to make tamago (jap egg). I was bored and decided to search for the recipe online. Guess what, I found it! hahaaa! I am going to try it next week!

The Recipe

Ingredients

2-3 Eggs
1 Tbsp of Sugar
1/2 Tsp of Lite Soy Sauce
1/2 tbsp of butter

Whisk eggs in a medium sized bowl until smooth. Then stir in Sugar and soy sauce until it becomes throughly mixed in. No lumps. Heat a frying pan at medium heat. Melt about ½ tbsp butter in the pan, spreading it so the bottom of the pan is completely covered. Pour the egg mix into the pan. When the egg looks opaque and you can get a spatula under it without tearing the omelet, flip the omelet. When the omelet is coked through (you can lift the omelet with the spatula to check underneath), remove the omelet from the pan. Slice into thin strips. The width of these strips depends on what you are using the tamago for.

Results are out!

2010-06-10T12:49:00.003+08:00

I dread times when I see my friend's messages saying that results are out. I knew I wouldn't score as well this semester.

Math paper was crap. It was obvious that Shutler is out to kill us with a 10-questions paper. Although tutorial sessions are fun, I felt that I didn't really learn anything. Dr Flor's tutorials helped a little, but not totally.

I had no confidence in scoring for DLK. I have never been good in writing essays. To add on to it,

this module requires strong command of English, which is something I lack.

I hated geography when I was in Secondary school. I had zero confidence in scoring a high grade. Spare me from those geographical terms like normal flora. Zzzz.

To speak the truth, now that I have completed the module, I have no idea what my DCE tutor is doing. She does.... SDL aka Self-directed learning. (Yes.. DED107) She keeps us in the tutorial room for 3 hours and she asks us to read the textbook. I seriously had zero knowledge. zzz

I have to admit this. I have been playing a fool, not listening, surfing the next during math pedagogy. HAAA. shoot me please. I thank god for the grades that I have got.

Above are my reflections for the past sem. With the terrible results that I have got, I promise to work hard like my first sem in the coming semester.

DCE100 (English Pedagogy) A-

DCL100 (Social Studies Pedagogy) B-

DCM100 (Math Pedagogy) B+

DLK101 (English for Academic and Professional Purpose) B-

DSE100 (Grammar) A-

DSL101 (Geography) B+

DSM101 (Math: Geometry) B

Cumulative GPA: 3.96

(Dropped a little as compared to last sem. I hope to bring the GPA up to at least 4 next sem. JIAYOU!)

P.S. Being bad in English, I managed to get A- for both grammar and pedagogy. Last sem, I managed to get an A- as well for text types. This is freaking funny. zzzz

2010-06-08T23:01:00.001+08:00

Promise to myself

I promise to work very hard to crossover. I know that chances of me crossing over is very little because of my poly grades, I promise I am going to try my best to push myself through.

Practicum is starting soon! I hope to do very well in everything and anything. I promise I will not slack and more.

This, I promise!

2010-06-07T00:47:00.001+08:00

I like to see the way you worry

I like to see the way you try to push a girl away when she tries to make friend with you

My boyfriend.

2010-06-01T12:13:00.003+08:00

Alvin said he has found his 兄弟 for our wedding.

WOW. Like I am going to get married soon hor!

Anyways, since he has decided who is going to be his 兄弟, I shall now go pick my list of 姐妹 from my list of friends. Haha.

I realised that I haven post pictures of my ring. Shall post it now, when I am free.

My ring from Soo Kee. Not very big, it is just a 0.4 carats diamond, Vs 1, H colour diamond with CR121 setting.

The wedding band shall be the one I should spend more on. :)

International English Language Testing Systems

2010-05-31T14:42:00.004+08:00

Took the IELTS administered by The British Council on 15 May 2010.

NIE requires us to take this test so that they can take our results for some research purposes.

Super stupid. Zzzz

2010-05-31T14:17:00.012+08:00

SUNDOWN MARATHON

After waiting for 45 mins for the bus
Fooling around before the race starts
JOYCEEE!!
SANDYYYY
the three of us!
and again!
JOYCEE
ohh nooo. ignore the fat arms.
yay!
our D tags.

2010-05-31T13:55:00.007+08:00

当我们同在一起。。

We were there for some bursary presentation. :)

Look at baby zhiying! omgg. he was soo cute!

Tian fu gong used to be our weekly hangout. Sister and I will go Tampines to meet mum and dad before we head down to Chinatown to pray. We would usually meet our cousins there. We will then go for lunch/dinner together. Those were the daysss.

Annual trip to Indonesia with my mum's colleagues at tampines.

Random birthday celebration at KFC. They all look so cute. OMGGG

The Unexpected Friendship

2010-05-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

2010-05-24T22:06:00.003+08:00

"You have met the best man"

People have been telling me that I have met the man every woman would wish for. I am not sure myself. He is my one and only and there isnt any comparison.

When I reflect what had happened over the past 4 years, I cant help but to agree that my baby never fails to spend on me despite his financial status. He would try his best to give me whatever I want. When he was a poor army boy, he would try to pay for our meals despite his miserable monthly salary of 700. Last year, he paid for the acupuncture slimming package and also my coach collection. This year, he bought my proposal ring and a agnes b voyage bag. I am blessed indeed.

He never fails to pacify me when I feel upset. He would always do stupid things to make me laugh. He stopped going to clubs and stopped smoking just because he knows that I don't like it. He is my boyfriend for you :).

I have talked to his sister-in-law about him on several occasion. She told me that I am the one who could melt his heart. Haa. This is so sweet, I thought from my heart.

It has been 50 months since we first got together. He never fails to make me feel proud to be his. (except for sometimes, when he tries to irritate me.) He once told me. "I have found the one in my life, and will never leave you." Tears started to rolled down my cheeks when I saw the sms. I hope he still mean what he said a few years ago.

2010-05-16T23:37:00.003+08:00

Alvin finally pissed me off on Saturday.

so much that I even considered breaking up with him to end my agony. (abit silly la. but not that i care, i was really angry)

The English test arranged by NIE had already pissed me enough and he had to piss me off by not answering my phone calls (The reasons that he gave me was that he was blading with his friends and didnt bring his phone along.) I was really mad with him. Ever since he met this group of new colleagues, he is no longer the . He wants to have fun and often neglects me. I even considered returning the proposal ring (I want him to consider what he wants before he tells me that he wants to marry me).

I made my way home after shopping ALONE in Bugis, was supposed to go for a jog, but because of what had happened? I decided to walk to the park with my water bottle. During this time, I barred all incoming calls from my phone. At the park, I had a good time reflecting upon what had happened and decided that I shouldn't be rash. (I deactivated the call barring function after debating with myself for quite sometime.)

Calls started to pour in. (he, himself, joanne and joyce) I didnt expect him to contact Sandy and Joyce. I felt like killing him, at the same time feel that he is damn smart to even contact his friend for Joyce's number. *clap clap*

(OK. I am tired, I shall continue tmr.)

Things are fine now. I hope he will treasure me more in future.

stay with me forever

2010-05-12T11:55:00.001+08:00

Alvin wants to go Vietnam with his colleagues in August. I am not sure what to do. What would happen if he brings some other girls back? I wouldn't be able to take it.

I am caught in a dilemma. part of me tells me that I should let him go, and the other part of me is telling me that I shouldn't. I do not know what to do. :(

2010-04-05T23:33:00.001+08:00

dse was a breeze while dlk was a disaster.

i felt so demoralised after the dlk paper. i was struggling to finish the paper. omggg. dlk is going to kill my GPA. I am very sure. :(

2010-04-04T18:03:00.003+08:00

a dream come true.

sookee warehouse sale

walked around

diamond and setting

asked

bought

:) I am a happy baby.

I DO I DO I DO! :) :)

2010-03-26T00:57:00.001+08:00

DAMN BHB!

Alvin says:
ok
then quickly do
sat we dun go out
we stay at home
i cook for u
Y A Y I N: 我要与你度过很多一百天！ says:
whats the menu?
western or chinesE?
Alvin says:
see u loh
u noe i can cook anything
Y A Y I N: 我要与你度过很多一百天！ says:
yah
whether can eat or not only mah
Alvin says:
can eat 1 loh
i nv fail be4
Y A Y I N: 我要与你度过很多一百天！ says:
yah
i want escargot

Alvin says:
that 1 supermarket nv sel
Y A Y I N: 我要与你度过很多一百天！ says:
LOL
got
must find
go see fb!
a
Alvin says:
dun have
Y A Y I N: 我要与你度过很多一百天！ says:
have

HAHA. Alvin Quek is damn funny. He makes me smile in the midst of the piling workload. I wonder if NIE is training teachers or robots!

2010-03-23T23:45:00.001+08:00

21 March 2010 marks the end of our 3 years 11 months and 29 day

and

22 march 2010 marks the start of our 4th year! :)

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY ALVIN QUEK!

hope you love me more for the many many years to come.

2010-03-04T12:39:00.002+08:00

sometimes, when i am not studying, i wish that i am studying.
when i am studying, i wish that i can take the study time to play pet society.

hah! whats wrong w me.

2010-02-25T23:20:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO FEEL THE LOVE THAT I AM FEELING NOW.
now and forever, i will be yours. :)

the week is a bitch with assignments due and tests on the very week after cny holiday. i worked like shit over the cny holidays and finally got my work done.

DSE was crap. there were loads of adjectives and adverbs. and to add on, my english is super powderful. changed the supposed right answer to a wrong one. freak!

DSM lagi best. my LT kanna the anal tutor who doesnt allow people to go to the toilet during lessons. he irritates me like mad. grrrr* again, i changed the right answer to the wrong one. it caused me 4 marsk! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i am welcoming the term break with opened arms. just submitted DCE assignment part 2. its time for exercise and fun! I want to cycle! :)

bf has been a good boy recently. he is continuing to work before training at air force starts so that he can save up to buy the bed frame for our new house. i love it when he is like that.*happy*

buttttt

it makes my blood boil when he does things that i do not like. (ie. drink, smoke) GRRRRRR. I gave him a chance to reflect upon himself. time to write an agreement to constantly remind him to not do things that i do not like.

other than that, though stressful, life is good with a loving bf and my group of friends from NIE.

I have slacked too much. time to buck up. JIAYOU!
I am looking forward to the trip to HDB on 9 March to select a flat of ours. <3>

Yinz

2010-01-31T23:36:00.003+08:00

不想把你忘掉；

2010-01-24T22:18:00.001+08:00

omggg. i was reading up just now and i realise that DLK is sucha headache. :( it requires me to write in proper english. i am sooo sooo dead. :( :(

2010-01-23T00:25:00.003+08:00

school has started and it is going into week 3.

I am so worried because assignments are due immediately after chinese new year. in this sem, there is this module that i am very very afraid of! DLK. it requires me to write a thesis statement using rhetorical approaches. i will be marked based on grammar and also the way i approach the question. i am totally stressed out!

ahhhh! i think i shouldnt go out that often anymore. i should focus myself alr.

cannot cannot. i must get 4.5 for the new sem! yay!

met up with ping, shiqin and huiyin yesterday for a chill out session at Timbre. went purposely to Timbre@Substation , so that i can see my eye candy(this singer from good fellas). hahaha! (dont worry, i am not cheating on alvin. he knows about him and he claims that he is more handsome. hah! whatever). it was a good chill out session. i enjoyed myself very much and would love to look forward to more meetings! :)

11 years and more to come.

to end off, i decided to post a picture of the handsome singer and myself. it was taken some time back when i went to the Timbre@ art house w the NIE people to celebrate joyce's birthday. haha! enjoyyyy.

p.s. tell me if alvin's claim is right. HAHAHA!

2010-01-16T01:21:00.002+08:00

bad day

mini "war" with the girls
some misunderstanding w ms chua
phone cannot be switched on

SIGH. whats next?

this marks the start of my bad year?
i dont wish for that to happen!

2010-01-12T23:57:00.003+08:00

school has started and it is draining all my energy.

school starts at 8.30am on monday and thursdays officially and i am going to go school to crash dr flor tutorial on wed mornings. she is really good. :)

i think i wont be blogging that much alr. this sem is going to be a busy sem with loads of projects and assignments.

big big sighhh

i am going to post a very emo post on friday, when i am a lil free-er.

before i end,

i will work extra hard this sem to pull up my GPA!

我要加油！

2010-01-09T02:08:00.002+08:00

Semester 2 blues

School is starting in 2 days' time and I am so not looking forward to it because of the stupid irritating timetable. It is so unfair cause some of my friends dont have to go to school on FRIDAYS. (i know you want to whack me for that) but I have been going to school for the past semester and trust me. I feel stupid when I have to use 2 hours to travel to school just for a 2 hours tutorial. In this sem, I have to use 2 hours to travel to NIE and back home just for an one hour tutorial. tell me how sickening is that!

BOOOO. to add on, I received an email from DCL100 tutor at 5pm and the email says this!

Hi all,
Happy and new year and welcome to DCL 100 :). Hope all of you had a good break :) Our first tutorial starts next week Monday. The course outline has been put on BB. Oh yes, there is a small (tiny) piece of homework to do before Monday. It has also been put up under course documents - Homework for Week 1 - My Personal Beliefs. Hope you will be able to complete it before you come for tutorial. This piece of work will help us to explore where you are coming from and also set your personal goals and directions for the course. Looking forward to seeing you on Monday :)
Take care :)
AC & KC
P.S. the slides for tutorial one will be put up on BB by Sunday :)

WHATTT! Assignment even before the starting of the sem? This is bad. I guess I would have to complete this assignment soon~ It is spoiling my weekend. (not as if the weekend is good. I have 3 tution sessions tmr and 1 session on sunday) GOOD JOB! ><

2010-01-05T23:49:00.003+08:00

ALOHAAA~

School has started for most people and here I am, enjoying another week of freedom before school starts. =(

What have I been doing for the past days?

Caught Avatar on 29 Dec. It was an impromptu one. it was supposed to be bf's company event. and on that day, at 7.30pm, he called to tell me that he had extra! yay! the trip to suntec to watch the show was worthwhile. I enjoyed the show. its really good. go catch it if you havent!

then on the 30th, i met up w secondary school friends in town. the guys except for andrew decided to fly aeroplane (didnt turn up). the meet up was good and i wish for more to come. after the meet up, ms chua, andrew and i headed to zouk for mambo~ :)

i fell sick on the 31st. i felt really bad because throat was sore and bad. my sister and i cooked dinner for the whole family. :) it has been a long time since the family had dinner together. every since my sister got into university, my family seldom sit together to have dinner together partly because of different commitment. (sister in hostel for her first 2 years, mum started to work full time, me having a bf). therefore, its rare to see all of us at home for dinner. mum even commented that both of us (sister and i) are weird because she expected us to be out. haha

new year day was a family day. sister, bf and i went to watch sherlock holmes in the morning. then we joined dad and mum at bugis after the movie.

I FINALLY WATCHED ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNK 2 ON SAT! hahahah. it was a no-brainer show la. it has no storyline. but i really enjoyed the show. its very funny and cute. good as a stress reliever. haha! bf commented that i look like eleanor (theodore's female version) because of her big butt! whatever.

I drove (or rather bf drove) up to NIE yesterday to help my friend to submit her assignment. I must say, after the trip to NIE on the car, I have more or less decided to not buy a car to drive to school cause the whole journey to NIE took me almost 2 hours. BAD EXPERIENCE. sigh. train for the next 1 and a half year! :( On a lighter side, i think i have gotten use to driving alr. (all thanks to bf's guidance after the test). After sending bf to work at dhoby ghaut, i drove back to Pasir Ris to return my friend's car. The experience was good. I hope that bf and I can buy a car soon so that I can practise more~ :) i must say this, I LOVE DRIVING.

After that, I went back to Griffiths to look for my "babies". I must say that they have all grown up and I still love them as much. Words cant describe how much i miss them. Despite the nonsenses that I have experienced, they were my motivation to school everyday. I enjoyed teaching them, talking to them. I wished I could teach them again, but that is not going to happen because I wouldnt want to go back to that school to take those nonsenses ever again.

today, the social studies people met up at TPY for a cooking session at joyce's house. the whole thing was hilarious. i spent my time laughing and cooking. it was a good and fruitful session. i am looking forward to the BBQ session on thursday! :)

School is starting in a few days' time. I have enjoyed my holidays. how about you?

2010-01-04T00:15:00.001+08:00

朋友一生一起走

its a lie. the meetup today concluded this.
I am upset. =/

2009-12-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

*coughs coughs*
*clears the spiderwebs that are on this page*

Helloo everybody (well, i hope there are still people reading this)
Time flies. it is going to be the end of 2009. 2010 is going to arrive in 2 hours time.

I started holidays since dec 18 and have been spending my time wisely. Let me give you a review of what has happened in year 2009.

WORK/STUDIES
2009 didnt start off nice because of my experience in my contract school. Things got better when I got into NIE. I studied and I put in a lot of effort. Thank god, the grades that I have gotten justifies the amount of work that I have put in.

GPA for Year 1, Semester 1
4.13 out of 5

Relationship
In the year 2009, Alvin and I decided to apply for a flat. We balloted for Punggol Residences, and we got a depressing queue number of 2309! We then applied for half yearly sales and then punggol ripple/sails. Results for Punggol Ripple/Sails would be out in Jan. I hope that we can really get the flat at Ripple or Sails. This has brought our relationship a level higher as compared to where we were. I am happy that we are already at this stage. It gives me the feel that he is going to be the man in my life. <3

MISC
The hamsters I have kept for the past 2 years have passed away. I have a new hamster. Her name is called Chicken Rice. Weird name right? HAHAHA. It doesnt matter because I like her name and what she is. HAHAH

2010 will be a better year. For me, and people dear to me.\

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-11-12T19:55:00.001+08:00

1st public housing project along Punggol Waterway to have eco—friendly features

1st public housing project along Punggol Waterway to have eco—friendly features
SINGAPORE: Singapore’s first public housing project along the Punggol Waterway will have eco—friendly features and resort—like designs.
The 1,200—unit waterfront project will be launched in the middle of next year.
The firm behind the winning design is a partnership between international architectural firm Group8asia and local design company Aedas.
They stole the crown with a distinctive sky terrace concept which creates public spaces along the waterway.
More than 100 design firms from Europe and Asia took part in the Punggol Waterfront Housing Design Competition.
They had to submit plans that matched the housing board’s theme of "Green Living by the Waters".
HDB said the waterfront flats will be kept affordable.
National Development Minister Mah Bow Tan, said: "New HDB estates look like private condominiums, but don’t cost as much as private condominiums. New innovative construction methods like pre—fabrication reduces cost and construction time. And that’s one of the reasons’ why we are able to keep the cost of construction down." — CNA/vm

should i just wait for this flats. but not 100% will get leh! >< should i or should i not?

2009-11-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

meet up with a old friend

met up w hairianto today. it made me realise that i've been a long time since i've sat and chatted with him and the group. i would like to go back to those days when we will study and play hard together. then, we were all broke and we would find entertainment like window shopping. today, all of us are busy with our own lives and commitment. i really wonder when i can meet them, talk as if there is no tmr.

sighhh.

i wish to arrange for a meet up this dec. :)

i dont need alot of friends, just a handful of commited ones is enough to last me a lifetime. i love friends who treasure, love me for who i am. i love who i am. :)

2009-11-09T15:05:00.001+08:00

Ed Psy 2 presentation tmr.

Math topical test tmr.

DUE 101/102 test next monday

GRAND FINALE:
DSM 100 Final Exam

I need the strength to go on. JIA YOU!

2009-11-03T10:23:00.003+08:00

i hate people who are not responsible for what they are doing. grrrrrr*

2009-10-25T23:50:00.003+08:00

我用尽我全力不去想你
可是，
我不知道为什么满脑子想的都是你。

你可不可以不要再让我有这种感觉？
难道你不知道我超不喜欢这种感觉吗？

2009-10-21T01:12:00.001+08:00

I am towards the end of the semester. Assignments piling like crazy. Travelling is crazy. I hate travelling seriously. If not for the high petrol cost and my future flat, I would have bought a car! >.<

I must constantly remind myself that I must study hard to squeeze my ass into BA programme. If not at least a CREDIT. jiayou!

2009-10-16T00:40:00.003+08:00

i am sucha muddlehead.

i think i left my calculator in the comp lab during ICT! i cant wait to go back to school to get it back. DAMN my bloody brain! urgh! if i cant find it, i would have to buy a new one, and then have to get it stamped and have to re-learn the functions!

STUPID ME! urgh!

2009-10-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

i pray for bf to pass NAPFA and then sign on successfully.

2009-09-11T22:34:00.000+08:00

I AM DROWNING IN SCHOOL WORK!

omg. eChart and SS reflection due on monday, Ed Psy I e-learning this week.

Then, its ICT and Ed Psy II due date the following week! ITS KILLING MEEE~ =(

2009-09-08T00:46:00.002+08:00

UPDATES

I got my Q number for Punggol Residence

IT IS NOT A GOOD NUMBER. =( out of the 614 units, my queue number is 2309. like it is cfm no hope kind of number. =( so what if we have 4 balloting chances? sighhh! There goes a very nice place. I really want an unit there. Let's see if they have it in the quarterly sales or not. I hope some people will just give up their place. =X

I hope we can get a house of ours soon! HDB, can you hear me? build houses at locations that I like please!

I am still looking forward to apply a flat!

I got a laptop from school and is happily using it now. heee. I feel guilty for neglecting my desktop.

school is getting busier and busier. I just finished a presentation today, assignments would be due next monday. I am stressed out. I know its all worth it.

加油吧，雅尹！

2009-08-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

NOTHING MUCH

Love me, By Colin Raye

I read a note my grandma wrote

Back in 1923 Grandpa kept it in his coat

And he showed it once to me

He said boy you might not understand

But a long long time ago

Grandma's daddy didn't like me none

But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet

And run away together

Get married in the first town we came to

And live forever

But nailed to the tree where we were

Supposed to meet instead

I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see

And between now and then

Till I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love me

I read those words just hours before

My grandma passed away

In the doorway of the church

When me and grandpa stopped to pray

I know I'd never seen him cry

All my 15 years

But as he said these words to her

His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do

Don't give up on me

I'll meet you when my chores are through

I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down

Darling wait and see

And between now and then

Till I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love me

Between now and then till I see you again

I'll be loving you

Love me

I was attending DSE lecture when my lecturer brought up this song. She told us that although its a song but it brings out a story, a very romantic one. Out of curosity, I logged on to google to look for the lyrics and I find it nice and touching. I am touched by the love, the old couple share. I hope the love that monster quek and I share would be the same many many many many years down the road.

I would like to dedicate this song to my dearest bf who have been there for me 3yrs plus ago. Thank You for tolerating my nonsenses and rubbish. =) I know it have been tough for you. I promise that the love I have for you is true.

love you. =)

2009-08-17T19:04:00.002+08:00

School have started!

On the first day of school, assignments have been assigned to us. I felt overwhelmed and I wonder how am I going to start. Esp when there's so many pieces of essays and group project to be submitted. I really admire the way NIE plan their timetable. They can plan it in such a way that I can step into the class, and I'll see 20 odd other unfamiliar faces. This is scary. seriously. sighhh~.

On tuesday, I missed the stop at NIE cause I didnt know where to alight. I was brought out of NTU campus. I realised it only when I saw the foresty long way. BOOO~. Travelling to and fro school is super tired. Especially when you sit from one end to the other end. (Pasir Ris to Boon Lay). I feel like it takes forever to reach. omgggg.

right, enough of school. I am going to enjoy and hope that I can crossover to BA. =)

PUNGGOL RESIDENCE

HDB sent us a letter to tell us that we'll have 4 chances of balloting. According to Joanne, the max number you can score is 5, we scored 4. So, I hope, we will get it, w a good queue number. =) It is a risky step that I am going to take. Its like going into another phase in life. I am looking forward to it, yet, worried.

RANDOM DINNER WITH YUETING

I met yueting on Friday for dinner. The both of us are supposed to meet ping and terence at Changi Village. In the end, Ping sms-ed to tell us that she had to work overtime. So being the 2 poor lil things, we met up for dinner and we talked like there's no tmr. Very happy to spend time with friends that are genuinely true. I am tired of deciphering people.

To encourage me, for the run on the next day, she gave me 2 of her 6 for $1 bananas which she bought from her office.

MOE OLIVE RUN 2009.
On Saturday, I participated in the MOE OLIVE run 2009. I took part in the 5km run. It was a good run cause I clocked my personal best timing (~ 33mins). I think it is not bad cause I've been running an average of 40 mins usually. I am happy and determined to run more to shape myself. I feel good when I perspire ALOT. =)
those who ran with me on Saturday.

2009-08-11T00:42:00.003+08:00

UPDATES!

I am back from Bangkok! It was a fun-filled one with my dearest bf and his best friends. We ate a lot, we shopped and bargained a lot. We ate 1 whole suckling pig at SOM BOON, we ate a claypot of shark's fin each. SUPER SHIOK. =D the food there is super cheap and nice. I ate fried grasshopper as well! omggg. It tastes like keropok plus the insect taste. It is super disgusting!

Fatty passed away on 7 August 2009. She is the baby hamster which i loved very very much. I thought I've cried enough, I will no longer cry because I know she doesnt like me to cry too much. I will always remember her, my darling, my baby. Rest In Peace, Fatty darling.

Fatty Darling

school's starting tmr.

i am very excited. i hope everything will go well on the first day of school. Wish me luck!

2009-08-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

5KM run~

i just ran 5km in 46 mins.

is it fast or slow? i wonder.

2 more days to bangkok, the city of smiles.

=)

2009-08-02T23:57:00.000+08:00

applied for PUNGGOL RESDIENCE.

I hope that we can get it. at least it will make me feel secured.

=)

2009-07-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

i dont know what has happened. i've not done anything wrong to deserve such treatment. after this incident, i have learnt to gear myself with iron clothing when i meet people. it is scary. i dont know who to believe after this, even my own family and bf.

how i wish that i could go back to where i was. i want to grow up to be normal. a slim and pretty baby. if i were to live again, i wont want these things to happen ever again.

i swear that i treat everyone with my heart. i still dont see the reason why i still have to go through such torment. is it because i am too nice or is it true that i really have problem. i really dont know how to react to this because this is so disgusting.

2009-07-30T18:52:00.000+08:00

7 days to BANGKOK.

i am super looking forward to it. =)

HDB came out with new flat in PUNGGOL- Punggol Residence. I was thinking of applying it because it will take at least 3 to 5 yrs to be built. I think it is about time that Alvin and I think about this.

I am not very sure if we can get this flat. I super like the location. It is just beside the MRT station. That means, if it will be very convenient for us even if we dont have a car. =)

I want a unit at Punggol Residence!!

YINz

2009-07-13T15:29:00.004+08:00

HONGKONG TRIP 2009

where: hongkong industrial park; tsim sha tsui, lantau island; citigates outlet; mongkok; admiralty; ocean park; causeway bay; central; macau;
when: 18 June to 22 June 2009
who: Dad, Mum, Yayan, Alvin, Alvin's mum and myself.
how: via Singapore Airlines SQ 865, 852

This HK trip is not as fun as what i expected it to be because of the stupid weather. This time round, we decided to go on SQ because the prices are more or less the same after the offer. On 18 June morning, the 6 of us met at the airport early in the morning for breakfast before boarding. All of us were super excited as this is the first time when both mothers meet and we're going overseas! :D

2009-07-06T02:08:00.002+08:00

“你朋友结婚送鸡蛋，以后我们结婚因为要圆圆满满，所以我们的wedding gift 就给一人一粒汤圆ok?”

my immediate reaction was: " 那我们不是很忙？"

hahaha.
my bf is cute. he'll just come out with some surprising phrases like this to make me laugh.

2009-06-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

"no matter what i do, nothing is going to please you."

2009-06-16T11:10:00.001+08:00

I am going to HK in 2 days time.

I am very excited cause i know i will enjoy my trip w my family. I know dad will have a good time eating the food there. I know mum, sis and myself will enjoy shopping there. COACH outlet just opened. I am going there to buy COACH! :D there's a burberry outlet there too! Hmmm. How about GUCCI? wahahahahahah! I am going crazy!

<3 YAYIN

2009-06-11T16:54:00.002+08:00

The feeling of holiday-ing is super shiok!

I am enjoying every bit of this holiday. :) I feel like i have compensated my body with all the sleep that I need. I am free to do anything and everything i want. I can wake up at 10 plus in the morning then I will have breakfast then I will slack till lunch. :D In another week's time, the whole family is going to HK for HOLIDAYS! I am soo looking forward to it except the fact that i will see a big hole in my pocket. =(

I have been asking my friends for cheap and good places to go because this time round, i am determined to bring my parents to nice places there. YAY! :)

2009-06-04T17:55:00.003+08:00

IT IS THE JUNE HOLIDAYS!

香港-星光大道
Just in case if you dont know this place, its actually avenue of stars. this is the night view of central. 中环。

I have been looking forward to this holidays because I will be going to Hong Kong with my parents! :) It has been a long time since the family traveled. The furthest we went as a family was only INDONESIA.

hmmm. should we go ocean park or should we go to disneyland? I am considering. I think i will discuss things with my mum and alvin's mum because the both of them will be able to make a decision.

NIE admission
To add on to my happiness, MOE HR has confirmed my place in NIE on monday through the phone. :) Dong Hua and I was so worried because we haven't recieved any letter from NIE. After much consideration, we decided to call HR to ask. The guy was super nice. He confirmed our positions in NIE and told us that our letters will be sent out in the 6th batch.

I cant wait to leave the school and start my education once again. I am looking at laptop now. I am quite sure that I am going to get MSI U100 plus. It is a mini laptop with 10" screen and it weigh only 1 kg. I will update and take pictures of the letter from NIE when it arrives. :D

YAY! I am very very happy.

2009-05-21T19:31:00.002+08:00

现在的我好像吃烧烤过的食物哟！

明天是我和大魔头在一起的三年两个月。好像和他出去好好的吃一餐。可是，我还在减肥。怎么吃呢？

我终于可以再一次读书了。很高兴。可是，又放不下我的学生。应唯有他们才有现在的我。他们是我在学校里的快乐。我会想念我最爱的李文文，还有，最坏的justin. 不知道他们会不会给新老师问题。我也放不下凯旋。不知道她会不会应为我不再而感到伤心。真的不知道。

嗨。

心里真是矛盾。我好想快快回到学校上课！
现在的我只是可以努力的勉励自己。

雅尹！！加油加油加油！

2009-05-12T22:57:00.002+08:00

我好累。真的好累，好累。

现在的我不再是以前的我。
我得要努力的伪装我自己。
在工作的地方，我得要树立一个好榜样。要不然，又要给其他人说闲话。
在办公室里，我不可以把我快乐；乐观的一面表示出来。
在家里，我得要装得很坚强。不可以给家里的爸妈担心。
在情人面前，我得要装的若无其事，应为他不喜欢我不高兴的样子。
在朋友面前，我得要显得很幸福，很快乐。

其实，现在的我并不快乐。我早已忘了快乐是什么。我很努力的想让我身边的人快乐，可是，我自己却快乐。心中有什么不悦总是收在心里最深自处。

人家说做人难，我觉得不能做自己的人更难。

我想要知道我到底是怎样的一个人。

2009-05-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

Reflections

I was reading my cousin's blog and I read how much she went through for the past month. I realised that being a mother is not easy. Her experience gives me goosebumps. I think her experience is invaluable and I hope that she will be healthy. I hope also, for her 2 lil daughters, Giselle and Kaelynn to be healthy and good so that she will have more time to take care of baby Kendrick.

After reading her experience and thoughts, I really think that the kind of love mothers give to their children is special. They dont mind sacrifricing just for their children. Mothers love to nag because they care. Mothers scold because they care. Mothers worry because they care.

It all comes to a word called CARE.
in chinese, it is called 关怀。
这种关怀是没有人会明白的。我自己都搞不清楚。

I would like to use this space to thank my mother for all that she have done. There are times when I rebel and not listen to her. There are times when I hurt her deep in her heart.

Now that I have stepped into the society to work, I realise the importance of her when it comes to decision making or when I need someone to give me advice. I've learnt to love my mother more as a person. I am not sure how she feels about me tho. =X

She may look like a normal woman with 2 daughters, but to me, I think she is the world greatest mother. I will not be who I am now if not for her.

Thank You Mummy for everything that you have done.

妈咪谢谢您给我们的一切。
母亲节快乐。
我们都爱你。：）

w love,
YINz

2009-05-05T17:38:00.002+08:00

I was researching on feng shui and i read this.

Those born in the lunar years coinciding with 1926 1938 1950 1962 1974 1986 1998 belong to the tiger zodiac. Those born under this special zodiac are strong, determined, attractive and courageous. Tiger is a noisy animal and like to attract attention around him by roaring. This makes the tiger people more outspoken and always wanting to attract attention from the surrounding. They make great leadership and are usually successful in corporates. At times, they can be boisterous or maybe egoistic. Tigers don't like to be challenged and prefer to be on the winning side most of the time, so don't every step on their tails or you will be bitten. Tigers love to be flattered and like new experiences in life.

I thought it best describes me. I think I am determined. I cannot deny that I am not noisy. LOL!
I am praying very hard that they approve me to go to NIE.
I am also praying very hard that no one in HK gets SWINE flu anymore. I cant wait to go HK with the family!

2009-05-01T23:30:00.003+08:00

Examination period.

I am worrying that my kids cannot do well for exams. Additional stress is on me because I just can't imagine them taking the exam. cause i am afraid that they may flop. I mean some of them. I am super behind time. I wish i could have more time with them so that I can make sure that everyone knows their work. I want very much want everyone in the class to pass because my class scored the best in CA 1. i hope they can make it throughhh.

The new FT just came. She seems to be a nice lady to work with. I will still continue with my maths and she'll do english because she is STELLAR trained.

Sighhhh. I wish for the best now. seriously. nothing can describe how much I want to go to NIE. I want to learn to be an effective teacher. I want to change the world.

YINz.